When You Can't Sleep

Darkness falls. Your body is weary, but your mind races in circles like a poor mouse stuck in a maze. The hours tick away and your body aches for a rest that never comes.

Sleepless nights are tough.  I'm writing this post in the wee hours of the morning, where most people are fast asleep, with a deep desire to shove caffeine straight into my veins just to get through the day. *Help me Jesus*

Love One Another

Have I told you about the one day I threw a wrench into an already messy family environment when I bid a fond farewell to the Catholic church and decided to continue following Jesus without a denomination?

This news was bigger than Watergate in my household. My dear mom swore she could hear our ancestors rolling over in their graves for my injustice! I tried to calm her nerves by affirming that I was not breaking up with God, or Jesus or the Holy Spirit for that matter. The Trinity was still cool; I just felt the Lord calling me in a different direction. But no matter how hard I tried, my explanations were never good enough. Being un-Catholic was just un-acceptable. It drove a huge wedge into an already messy relationship.

Extend more grace, less judgment to others today. {tweet it}

Grappling With Sovereignty

If you have been reading along these past few months, you know we have been dealing with the pain and despair that comes from infertility and miscarriage.

Thankfully, God is so faithful. I have been pouring myself into His word these days. Like obsessively, if you can actually become obsessive reading His word. And it's been such a cool thing!

When you let the fruits of the spirit root into your soul, amazing things begin to happen. {tweet this}

When the insanity of life comes flying right at your face, you have the patience and the skill to navigate the daily bombs and grenades like a mighty ninja in a Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon movie.

Those Bad Haircut Moments Of Our Sin Life

Sometimes I do the most random, impulsive things. Like make a hair appointment "on a whim" to cut my hair or totally change my style or color.

I don't know about you, but those moments never seem to work out.

I will complain for months that I want to let my hair grow out. Then I lament for months at my decision. It's too long. I need to cut it. I want bangs. Dear hubby: thank you for putting up with me!

Over the years I've done this enough times to know one thing:

Never make a hair appointment on a whim.

I've made enough bad, impulsive and rash decisions related to my hair, that I've learned, or at least should have learned by now, that they're never a good idea. In fact, more times than not, they're the worst idea ever.

Been there, done that? And got the awful haircut to prove it? Join my club!

Oh my.

Sins alot like a bad haircut, you know. {tweet this}

Unfulfilled Dreams

Life is a bit funny, isn't it? I mean, one minute you are 5 years old. Dreaming of the day you will be a big Hollywood actress, or a ballerina. Or maybe some totally kick butt rock star. And if that doesn't work out, maybe a princess, space explorer, firefighter, race car driver, mountain climber or doctor.

And then the next day, out of the blue, it seems like you're OLD. You have responsibility. And lots of it. Bills to pay. A house to care for. A few gray hairs. A to do list a mile long. And what feels like (sometimes) no time for yourself. And gravity is no longer your friend.

I haven't made a dent in the list of my childhood dreams. Not even close. 

Love Your Valentine All Year Long

Last week millions of people rushed to buy flowers, stuffed animals, candy, cards and diamonds to remind their spouse of  their undying devotion.

I wonder how many of those millions are still feeling the love this week?

1 Corinthians 13:4-7 “Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things."

How many of us live out these biblical truths in our marriage? They are hard to put into practice, but only through the grace of God can we learn to love like Jesus loved, even in marriage.

Only through the grace of God can we learn to love like Jesus loved, even in marriage. {tweet it}

Love is patient, with our spouses and the curveballs that life often throws at us. Love is kind, even when our spouses are cranky. Love is humble, even when we are the one that is "right" in an argument. Love is filled with honesty and Godly truth. Love is endearing, even when our spouses are not. Love endures all things, even the biggest stresses that life can throw at us. Love is filled with a hope that only comes from knowing Jesus Christ.

Let's face it, this love stuff is tough work. We are busy. We have responsibilities. Little and big people to care for. To do lists a mile long. Laundry and lots of it. And sometimes romance is the first thing to fly out the proverbial window in our marriage.

But in the middle of all the daily craziness, don't you want to feel loved by the one person on this earth that you vowed to go through life with? I sure do.

How do you show love to your spouse in the daily chaos of life?

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To Love Honor & Sneeze Together

I just celebrated 11 wonderful years of marriage to a really incredible man!

Truth be told, they haven't all been wonderful years, many have been difficult and long for both of us. But we got through them together. Some years with heartache and tears, other years with joy and smiles.

There were days, years maybe, for both of us, where it probably seemed like it would never get better. We resented each other at some point, I'm sure, for our lack of respect and love to each other. We were so busy with our own hurt hearts that we couldn't see through to the other person's pain and frustration. There were years for both of us where it was all about 'me me me.' Those, by the way, were the difficult years. That 'me, me, me' mentality didn't work when we were 2 year olds; it certainly doesn't work any better as adults, does it?

You are invited!

I'm speaking at a women's event in the Fox Cities this month. I would LOVE for you to join me on Saturday, February 21st!

The non-denominational women's event is FREE. There will be coffee, fruit and muffins. I think it'll be a really neat time of worship, prayer and testimony.

We all face trials, big and small, right? So let's get together and share how the Lord is using each of us!

No RSVP required, check out the event info below.

(If you are receiving this message via email and do not see the event details, click here to head over to the event page of my site for more info or go check out the Facebook link.)

Teach Me To Love

I hated Valentine's Day growing up. My parents had a horrible marriage and the whole idea of celebrating love with candy, roses and cards in a marriage that lacked kindness and basic human decency was a joke to me.

But back in 10th grade, I had a crush on this boy. He wasn't a very nice guy. But all the girls were mushy gushy for him because he was nice to look at. I'm sure your high school had one or two of those boys around.

That year our school held a Valentine fundraiser. We could buy roses and have them delivered anonymously to lockers. My silly, naive girlfriends convinced me that I should buy a rose for this guy. And put a handwritten poem in his locker to boot.

This boy got alot of roses that Valentine's Day. But only one love note.

Living With Purpose

There's typically a plan and a purpose to the daily chaos, right? We run around like a chicken with our head cut off most days of the week. Between errands, housework, cooking, work and other responsibilities, we're beat by week’s end! When the weekend rolls around, it's on to family commitments, church activities, social gatherings, etc. Sounds pretty familiar, right?

How often do we take time to sit down and talk to God with such purpose? Are we thanking Him for beautiful weather or a magnificent sunset? Do we pray for the cranky person we meet while running errands? (after asking for abundant patience not to reach out and whack them!) Do we appreciate those with a servant heart in our lives? Maybe a cheerful bank teller or caring school teacher?

Being intentional in our relationship with Christ will quench a thirsty soul! {tweet}

I'm not saying we must do lots of 'things' to be a better Christian. Certainly not. We can't earn our salvation, it's a gift. But I can tell you that I've benefited tremendously by being purposeful in my relationship with Christ. And I often wonder how God can possibly speak to us, when the world we live in is always vying for our attention? God is always talking...it's just a matter of whether we are listening.  

More Jesus. Less me. That's my desire for you and me this year!