Worship While You're Waiting

I'm not a patient person. And if we're being honest, you aren't either. Admit it.

Long lines at the grocery store? Hate 'em.
Long waits at the doctors office. So not a fan.

I've done a lot of waiting the past few years.

I've waited for biopsy results while laying alone in a sterile hospital room on a cold metal table. Results? Not good. But praise the Lord cancer was removed. He was with me.

I've waited on test results from the infertility specialist. I got a big fat F, by the way. No kids here. At least none that have made it this side of heaven. But He has been with me every step of the way. Through the comforting words of friends, tremendous amounts of love from my hubby, whispered prayers of church family, and the gentle kindness of strangers reaching out to a broken, messy woman in the grocery store.

I still wait every month, holding onto the hope that maybe, just maybe, by the grace of God that dang stick will sport a plus sign one of these days. But every month, it doesn't. *sigh* And He is with me through the tears and the heart break.

This past week, I waited for vet results, only to find out our little furball Squeaky has cancer. Her sweet chirps and purrs and furry cuddles may leave us soon. Only time will tell. And through all the tears, He is still with me.

There's so much more sweet friends. So much more waiting, and so much lost hope. For you and for me. Our lives are filled with unmet dreams and tales of sorrow. *big cyber hug*

But my big "takeaway" from all these experiences is that even when every test, every lab, every diagnosis seems to be against me, He is always with me.

I've grown deeper roots. Like a well watered tree, I've turned to the Bible for my living water. And it's allowed me to lean more deeply on Him and His word. To trust. In His Sovereignty and His timing.

Through all the tears, all the heartache, all the sleepless nights lying awake in worry of whether I would live to see another year, He was with me. He is still with me. Always.

Guess what?
He is with you too! Through the good times, the bad times and the waiting times.

What are you waiting on today? Whatever it might be - new job, health issue, grief over a loved one or insert your issue here - make sure that you remember: 

He is with you. Always.{tweet it}

I struggle alot with over thinking. I obsess about the tiniest most ridiculous details of my blog. I worry sometimes that the things I say are taken the wrong way. I don't always speak up when I should, because I worry what others might think of me. Basically, I think WAY too much...that's my hubby's official diagnosis. So I stumbled upon this little writing community called Five Minute Friday. Every week there is one word and five minutes to write. No over thinking or editing. Just free flow writing. This week, I'm joining in the fun. (If you subscribe to get my blog posts by email, you'll be journeying along with me!) xoxo Nicki 

More Jesus. Less Stuff!

More Jesus. That is my heart's desire for both YOU and me this New Year.
Holy buckets Batman, easier said than done, right?

My desire for this blog and my radio ministry, is to encourage your soul. To help women seek joy in everyday living; to enjoy our God given purpose in the multitude of roles we play on this Earth. And to receive the grace so abundantly given when we fail. Because oh, how we fail.

We mess up. Daily. And by the grace of God, He loves us anyway. {tweet it}

It's so easy to get sidetracked from purpose, isn't it? Life 'stuff' gets in the way.

Lighting Up The New Year!

Every year, when the calendar season starts fresh, I get super excited. It's like the slate is wiped clean and I have a fresh start. Then I ruin it by creating all these lists of things I want to do. Lose more weight, eat healthier, read my bible more, exercise more. Usually by this time, three weeks or so into the New Year, I've already failed at most of my resolutions.

It's exhausting wanting to be more and feeling like you are never enough. Can you relate at all?

What if this year we stopped wanting to do more, more, more? And just became satisfied filling ourselves up with more of Jesus? What if He was more than enough?

Exciting news friends! I'm a new member of the regular contributor team at Five Minutes For Faith. I'll be featured every month. Join me at the FMFF community and finish "Lighting Up The New Year."

This Control Freak Reads Her Bible

You know, even though I didn't make resolutions this year, I thought about kicking off the New Year right and finishing a big project that I've been avoiding the past couple months. But then I had the overwhelming desire to clean my bathroom (crazy, I know), check Facebook (not shocking) and start a bathroom renovation project (about a year overdue). And if that weren't enough, I even took the time to make little tweaks to my website for like the 100th time.

It's a New Year. A fresh start. New beginnings. The slate is wiped clean on the calendar. We get a do over. Now what in the world do we do with it?

Until a few years ago, I had a little issue reading my Bible. I’d always think, “girl, you need to sit down and read your bible today,” but then most days I’d think about all the other stuff I had to do and there just wouldn't be enough time in the day to get there. Sound familiar?

Let Me Tell You About My Friend Jesus

I love it when God gives me the opportunity to tell people about my friend Jesus. 

God has been sending alot of atheists into my life lately. There was a week or two in there where I felt like they were literally crawling out of the woodwork.

It's been really interesting to have discussions with people who lack faith, or question things in such obsessive detail. It makes me wonder how they even get through the day? When you get caught up on such big picture ideas, how do you manage to get through a normal day with all its twists and turns? And more importantly, how do you handle all the disappoints of each day when your heart isn't filled with hope?

Unbelievers are everywhere. They come in all shapes and sizes. Big ones and tall ones. Short ones and young ones. Spouses, siblings, neighbors, coworkers, family members, friends, random people we meet throughout our week.

One Word 2015: Purpose

I recently read a statistic that said only 12% of the people who make New Year's resolutions actually carry them all the way through. That's harsh. And sounds like a recipe for disaster. So this year, I decided to skip the resolutions. And that whole one word thing? I'm on board with it this year. I thought it could give me a little more focus in my writing, as well as my relationships and speaking engagements. (Last year, I was anti one word, you can read here!)

My hubby wanted to choose my word. He thought it should be focus. Because I'm a girl who is all over the board on things. Like in conversations, when you talk about the entire alphabet and bounce all around the numeric system too. Know what I mean? It's really just a chick thing, I told him. All ladies get random when they gather together for conversation. Ahem, I digress.

Five Minute Friday: Welcome

When I get stressed, my freak out thing is to clean. It's my super power.

There could be worse things, right? Like devouring a tub of Ben & Jerrys, or eating a million calories worth of chocolate, then running 10 miles the next morning to burn off the guilt.

Crazy, right?

I used to do that ALOT when I was stressed. But over the past few years I have ditched the ice cream and the crazy workout routine and turned to cleaning as my default superpower. (Sorry Ben & Jerrys, for the dramatic loss in revenue!)

My house, by the way, is immaculate these days.

Don't You Love Fresh Starts?

There is something really beautiful about do overs and fresh starts, don't you think? Fresh starts are alot like rainbows on a stormy day. {tweet this}

It's a New Year. A time for a fresh start. Your slate is wiped clean. You can rewrite your story. Learn from your mistakes. Reinvent yourself. It's such a fun and blessed thing.

And I don't know about you, but it stresses the heck out of me every single year. Like crazy.

God's Everlasting Love

You've faced many joys and sorrows this year, haven't you? Me too friend,.

We are just a few days away from closing the book on another year.

I want to encourage you this week to join me and take some time to gain a heavenly perspective on this earthly life. And worship a Redeemer who provides sweet blessings during our trials and joys.

The joys are so easy to list when life is going smoothly, aren't they?

Have Yourself A Messy Little Christmas

This year with our infertility story unfolding before us, the Christmas story has taken on a different layer of meaning than years before. I've been thinking alot lately about the brokenness that Elizabeth faced during her time on this Earth. I can't even imagine how isolating and painful it was for her to be growing old and suffering from a barren womb during a time where people were literally multiplying like fruit flies. The heartache. The pain. The isolation she must have felt from all her family and friends. And the shame. Oh, the horrible, cutting, deep shame.

I've been reading through the birth narrative and the beautiful redemption story that unfolds in Matthew and Luke these past few weeks, and I just keep thinking about how messy the events leading up to the first Christmas really were.